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Oct. 15th, 2009

04:01 pm

I haven't read or written anything here in a long time. I've been on Facebook recently since they have a much better iPhone app. Anyway, I've had some thoughts recently that I just feel like getting out there:

1. Awareness - I feel like I've been so wrapped up in myself, my future, my husband and my career lately that I'm horribly uneducated and uninformed about the world, or hell my own community. I need to work on that.

2. Time - I have only read 3 books this year. I wanted to read 12! Granted, two were huge, but still. Must work on time management, but I think a lot of this will come from finally getting a regular work schedule. I do crave routine.

3. Weight - I have no idea what is going to motivate me to lose weight for good. I've hovered around my current weight for the last 10 years. 10 lbs up or 10 lbs down. I mean, if laziness and instant gratification are my only reasons for eating unhealthfully, I'm in trouble 'cause those are hard to break. And just not being the fat one come August doesn't seem to really be good enough either.

4. Goals - I'm scared. Scared that I'll never have enough to open my dream bar, scared that I won't have enough knowledge for anyone to take me seriously and scared that my target market will be too small and I'll never have any customers. I guess I just need to keep plugging along though. Starting with getting this bankruptcy started by the end of the year. Another thing that's scared me: saving up $2,000 is taking WAY too long.

That's it for now. Just wanted to get this stuff out there, somewhere.

May. 19th, 2009

10:12 am

Ok, taking another look at my goals. A lot has changed in my life, so let's see what's up.

  1. Health
    1. General: Lose up to 50 pounds and feel physically fit. - Currently at 154. Not bad! I wanted to be at 150 by the beginning of June.
      1. Food - Use Sparkpeople diet or just continue to eat healthfully - We've been on a hell of a hiatus lately, but I think that's due to stress and changes in habit, schedule, etc. We need to get back on track.
      2. Take Vitamins, Body Balance, OsteoFlex and True Greens an average of 5 days a week. - Haven't been very good with this one at all. My Mom has some new products she wants me to try, so I'm thinking this will end up being an overall fail for the year, but by next year I should figure out what I want to use on a daily/weekly basis and stick to it.
      3. Exercise - Exercise an average of 5 days a week. By the end of the year be able to jog at "4"on the treadmill for 15 minutes. Though feeling “fit” and healthy also counts as a win. - Not doing well AT ALL. I haven't even gotten my bike fixed to start riding again. Something to get going on in June.
  2. Career - LOTS OF CHANGES
    1. Cellar Door -
      1. Finish Business Plan. Have almost finished compiling information from other business plans to use as a jumping off point for my own. Honestly, this business occupies so much of my thoughts during the day. I want it to happen so badly, I just need to figure out how to make what I want something the Burlington public wants as well. Includes reading 2 books:
        1. Small Business Owner's Manual by the Staff of Entrepreneur Magazine
        2. The Complete Idiot's Guideto Starting and Running a Bar
      2. Start learning more about local (VT and New England) wine (keep journal)
    2. peerVue TGI Friday's Who would have thought that becoming a waitress would be a good career move for me?
      1. Learn how to perform demos for tradeshows -
      2. Do my best to achieve demo goals set for me by Corporate - Well I moved up from hostess to waitress training in just a few weeks. I think I'd like to make it a goal to be a bartender at TGI Friday's by the end of the year.
  3. Financial
    1. Organize a timeline to pay off debt - Looks like we're going to go ahead with a bankruptcy. Now we just need to come up with the $2,000 to do it. Hopefully this will be at least started to be taken care of within the next couple months.
  4. Spirituality
    1. Start meditating weekly or as is reasonable. - Still no progress and I still need to make the time for it. Being back on a random schedule is hard. I think in a month things will start to settle out with when I work and I can start planning time for myself on a weekly basis.
    2. Read a book a month (can swap out books on this list for others)
      1. Otherland: City of Golden Shadow by Tad Williams - Still working on this one... grumble.
      2. Otherland: River of Blue Fire by Tad Williams
      3. Otherland: Mountain of Black Glass by Tad Williams
      4. Otherland: Sea of Silver Light by Tad Williams
      5. Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card
      6. Speaker for the Dead by Orson Scott Card
      7. Midnight’s Daughter by Karen Chance
      8. Complete Works of Lewis Carol
      9. Diary: A Novel by Chuck Palahniuk
      10. Nightshade Guilty Pleasures by Laurell K. Hamilton COMPLETE
      11. 1984 by George Orwell
      12. A Diary From Dixie by Mary Chesnut

Apr. 9th, 2009

09:08 am - Good news and Bad news

Good News: I got a job as a receptionist!
Bad News: It's a temp position for 4-6 weeks. I'm hoping that they'll either decide to keep me on after that or that something will come up in town during that time and I'll end up with a job either way.

Good News: We've moved and really like the new place despite its faults.
Bad News: Our roommates have not paid us the full amount for April. One is $128 behind and the other is $578 behind. However, the first one will have the money by the end of the month. The other, however, continues to be a disappointment and source of frustration. The two jobs that they were supposed to have turned out to only be ONE job and they failed to notify us or secure a second job to supplement the lost income. Obviously, with the loss of my job and this one not being very secure, we MUST have reliable roommates. God I am so sick of being someone's god damn parent. I CANNOT pick up the slack whenever they feel like shafting us.

Good News: I'm determined to get back on track with my diet, exercise and overall health is this new house. A new start. We even got a brand new (working) scale.
Bad News: I've been doing super shitty so far and am 8 lbs. heavier than I'd previously thought. It makes sense though, I haven't really felt any thinner. So this time, when the scale says I've lost weight, I really will have!

Mar. 23rd, 2009

08:44 am - Hm, well, yeah...

So.... I got laid off today.

Saw it coming, unfortunately. There was so much pressure coming from the top that a few people were bound to be pushed out the sides.

Wish me luck in the job hunt. And if anyone knows about a place that's hiring, let me know! My availability has just opened up!

Mar. 19th, 2009

11:42 am - I HATE MY JOB!

I am so sick of getting e-mails every morning telling me that I'm not doing good enough. That DOES NOT inspire me to work. It just makes me want to take a shower, blow off work and go look for another job. Hell, I'd be happier working 65 hours a week at a retail job that I liked than having to go though this crap every day.

I want to get back to something simple. Hell, something mindless. I want to work in a bookstore or a wine shop or a lingerie shop. Something I like that I'd enjoy being around and damn the pay!

Unfortunately, no one is hiring right now and I'm SO not in a position to do something stupid, like quit. So, I just have to suck it up, do my best and hope things improve.

Feb. 18th, 2009

12:36 pm

So I thought I'd take a look at my goals for this year and see how I'm doing. Yeah, we're only two months in, but it's good to make sure I'm staying on track.

  1. Health
    1. General: Lose up to 50 pounds and feel physically fit. - Getting there! Lost 12 lbs. already!
      1. Food - Use Sparkpeople diet or just continue to eat healthfully - This one I'm actually doing REALLY well with. We've had a couple "cheat" weekends, but we always get right back on with healthy eating afterward.
      2. Take Vitamins, Body Balance, OsteoFlex and True Greens an average of 5 days a week. - Feb: Vits 40%, BB/Osteo 45%, Greeens 0%. So overall, a fail. Need to work on it in March.
      3. Exercise - Exercise an average of 5 days a week. By the end of the year be able to jog at "4"on the treadmill for 15 minutes. Though feeling “fit” and healthy also counts as a win. - Feb: 25%, a fail. Need to work on it again in March.
  2. Career
    1. Cellar Door - No progress so far, sadly.
      1. Finish Business Plan, includes reading 2 books:
        1. Small Business Owner's Manual by the Staff of Entrepreneur Magazine
        2. The Complete Idiot's Guideto Starting and Running a Bar
      2. Start learning more about local (VT and New England) wine (keep journal)
    2. peerVue
      1. Learn how to perform demos for tradeshows - HAVE to achieve this by April 4th. Waiting on Aaron to set a date to help me (and some other colleagues).
      2. Do my best to achieve demo goals set for me by Corporate - So far so good!
  3. Financial
    1. Organize a timeline to pay off debt (much depends on if/when we can sell the timeshare)- It's looking like selling the timeshare isn't going to really work out. We might end up just giving it back to my parents (a wasted Wedding gift, unfortunately) considering we don't really have the money to fly to Vegas every year AND pay the maintenance fees. And if we did, we probably wouldn't choose to go to Vegas. It's just... not our style any more. It's changed too much. As far as the timeline. I'm going to set up an appointment with a Credit Counselor. Kate, what was the name of the place again? Michael changed phones to the text was lost.
  4. Spirituality
    1. Start meditating weekly or as is reasonable. - No progress so far, but with all the stress (which easily heads into depression) I've had recently, I should start making the time.
    2. Read a book a month (can swap out books on this list for others)
      1. Otherland: City of Golden Shadow by Tad Williams - Still working on this one... grumble.
      2. Otherland: River of Blue Fire by Tad Williams
      3. Otherland: Mountain of Black Glass by Tad Williams
      4. Otherland: Sea of Silver Light by Tad Williams
      5. Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card
      6. Speaker for the Dead by Orson Scott Card
      7. Midnight’s Daughter by Karen Chance
      8. Complete Works of Lewis Carol
      9. Diary: A Novel by Chuck Palahniuk
      10. Nightshade by Laurell K. Hamilton
      11. 1984 by George Orwell
      12. A Diary From Dixie by Mary Chesnut

Jan. 2nd, 2009

05:30 pm

Ok, here are my goals for 2009. Honestly, what I really want over all for this year is to feel like I'm moving forward in the "right" direction with my life. So, these seem to be good ways to help accomplish that, but if I fall short and am still on a good path, so be it. :-)

  1. Health
    1. General: Lose up to 50 pounds and feel physically fit.
      1. Food - Use Sparkpeople diet or just continue to eat healthfully
      2. Exercise - Do aerobics an average of 4 days a week, yoga an average of 2 days a week and pilates an average of 1 day a week. By the end of the year be able to jog at "4"on the treadmill for 15 minutes. Though feeling “fit” and healthy also counts as a win.
  2. Career
    1. Cellar Door
      1. Finish Business Plan, includes reading 2 books:
        1. Small Business Owner's Manual by the Staff of Entrepreneur Magazine
        2. The Complete Idiot's Guideto Starting and Running a Bar
      2. Start learning more about local (VT and New England) wine (keep journal)
    2. peerVue
      1. Learn how to perform demos for tradeshows
      2. Do my best to achieve demo goals set for me by Corporate
  3. Financial
    1. Organize a timeline to pay off debt (much depends on if/when we can sell the timeshare)
  4. Spirituality
    1. Start meditating weekly or as is reasonable
    2. Read a book a month (can swap out books on this list for others)
      1. Otherland: City of Golden Shadow by Tad Williams
      2. Otherland: River of Blue Fire by Tad Williams
      3. Otherland: Mountain of Black Glass by Tad Williams
      4. Otherland: Sea of Silver Light by Tad Williams
      5. Ender’s Game by Orson Scott Card
      6. Speaker for the Dead by Orson Scott Card
      7. Midnight’s Daughter by Karen Chance
      8. Complete Works of Lewis Carol
      9. Diary: A Novel by Chuck Palahniuk
      10. Nightshade by Laurell K. Hamilton
      11. 1984 by George Orwell
      12. A Diary From Dixie by Mary Chesnut

04:53 pm

Michael did this a while ago, so I thought I'd so this too, just for fun:

List of all the jobs you've had:

Ben Franklin’s (Associate)
Pet Food Warehouse (Inventory Specialist)
Purple Shutter Herbs (Intern)
Daniel Webster College Administration (Office Administration Support)
Canyon Country Animal Hospital (Administration Support)
Bath and Body Works (Associate)
Petco (Cashier, Small Animal Specialist)
Garden Supply (Intern, supposedly, no one taught me anything, so I quit)
Office Internship with Nia Stefani (Lasted two days, wasn’t willing to teach me, so I quit)
Office Max (Cashier/CopyMax Associate)
Rimpco (Office Assistant)
Saugus Animal Hospital (Receptionist)
Jamba Juice (Associate, primarily cashier)
BC Bancorp (Quality Control/Data Entry)
Fralock (Receptionist/Office Assistant)
peerVue (Inside Sales Specialist)

Nov. 18th, 2008

09:45 am - IT'S SNOWING!!!

IT'S SNOWING! IT'S SNOWING! I'm so excited that I'm finding it hard to concentrate on work or do anything else that's not sitting at the window or standing at the front door looking at the snow! I'm so glad I'm back home!!!

Nov. 14th, 2008

08:58 am - So glad I left So Cal!

So Much Pollution; Where Do We Breathe In?
Air pollution in California costly and deadly, study says

The polluted air in Los Angeles and California's San Joaquin Valley costs residents and government some $28 billion annually in health-care and other expenses and kills more people than all the car accidents in those areas, according to a study by researchers at California State University, Fullerton.

The full story

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